I’ve been in a bit of a foul made lately, and the main reason for that is probably because of school. I can’t wait to get out. I cannot wait to graduate and just get the heck out of there.
I never really understood the whole reason why towards the end of their year, seniors always get so antsy to graduate or why they get “senioritis.” But now that I’m a senior, oh my goodness can I relate.
A lot of the reason is just my school itself. We have all of these dumb rules and regulations that don’t do or prevent anything. For example, no one is allowed to wear a backpack unless it is clear, nor are they allowed to wear a large purse – large defined as being able to fit a notebook into it. This rule was instituted last year when a student brought a gun to school. No one was injured, but to prevent this from happening again, this rule was drawn up and applied.
Now, I do commend them for trying to do something so that that situation would not arise again, but I don’t exactly commend them for doing something just so it looks like they’re doing something, if that makes sense. This rule prevents nothing. If a student is determined enough to bring a gun to school, then they would fit it in their pocket or jacket or, if it were a female (unless some males like to wear their “satchels”) they could easily fit it in their smaller purse.
So anyways, a frustrating rule because I have to go to my locker twenty kajillion times a day because I don’t have a backpack and because I like to take challenging classes which require a kajillion textbooks. And I happen to like cross-the-body bags which I can no longer wear. So I had to go find a new purse that would fit the rule and spend $30 on something I didn’t really need. Argh.
And then the classes themselves. I feel like I’m only learning anything in about three of the seven – my Calculus, AP World History, and French class. The rest are really just a joke. 
In my English class, we are currently doing an art project. Why teachers feel that they need to incorporate art into some of their classes kind of baffles me. Sure, in elementary and middle school, but in high school? There is a reason why there are classes entirely devoted to art. Basically I have to create a diorama of a scene from my novel. Why I can’t just quickly draw a picture on a piece of paper, or even better, imagine it in my head, I don’t know. :-?
And the people, oh my goodness. I can’t tell you how just completely stupid people are. I think that I am generally a nice person and I’m pretty patient with people. But when people ask why our teacher who has a doctorate in bio-chem isn’t working in a hospital, my patience runs a little short. Or when people like, oh my gawd, talk really like loud, and say like over and over and like, over again. And won’t stop talking about themselves. And how cool they are. Like, oh my gosh. :angry: I’ve been around the same people for the past twelve years of my life, and while I’ve made some amazing friends, I’ve also met a lot of people I don’t ever want to see again. I am so glad that I’m going to a college three and a half hours away from here.
All of these things just make me so apathetic towards school. I hate going and I feel like I’m just wasting my time at the moment. I am thankful for the public education that I have received and am still receiving, but at the moment, I’m not seeing a lot of benefits.
Sorry for such a cranky post, but I’m a bit cranky. And don’t want to do this dumb art project. I wish I was born with a bit more artistic skills at times like these so I would enjoy these projects.
In other news, my dad’s doing great. Thank you all for your lovely comments and concerns on my last post. :love: He starts chemo and radiation treatment on Thursday, and honestly, you can’t tell that anything at all is wrong with him. He’s just as happy as ever and I think the rest of us are all over the initial shock. So, things are pretty good.
Our school has the same policy for backpacks! Except for us, not even clear ones are allowed. If you want to carry a book bag it has to be one of our SCHOOL’S official drawstrings…. lol. It’s not for the same reasons (gun), actually I’m not even sure why there is this rule.
But anyways, I know exactly what you mean when you say you love it but hate it. I’m super grateful for the available education, but just some things are so irritating about it.
I think that a lot of public schools have that same rule. It all started with Columbine.
I’m glad to hear that your Dad is feeling optimistic and upbeat. 
Dude, I didn’t even have a locker in high school or I kind of did but I always had trouble with locks. I used a messenger bag because it was more convenient for me but that rule has to suck.
I know a few year back, a kid brought a knife to school and hurt one of my friends (not to mention that I sat with this kid at lunch one time. He was the quiet loner type) but the only thing that changed was going through metal detectors. Nothing big or drastic, thank god like your school.
Though there have been fights and craziness at my high school (when I went there. Thank god I graduated in ’08!) that involved police and many bathroom fires. It didn’t help that our school was overcrowded.
Though my ex did tell me a story about my high school and about a policy about tucking in shirts and that a kid decked a teacher or was it a principle after being told to tuck in his shirt..so therefore there was no more shirt tucking in my school when I went there.
I’m glad that your dad is upbeat about it! Getting the news of cancer is even harder (because I was just informed a few days ago that my friend’s uncle committed suicide after finding out he had cancer) to accept especially if you are on the receiving end. Cancer is a little bitch. I’ve seen it killed too many people. It’s ridiculous.
I hope he gets well soon! Also I didn’t like my high school or even the experience either. I kind of took hard classes (Pre Calc and Physics) but dropped them due to having family problems at home etc; I just slacked off by being a aid in the library. Best senior year!
I’m sorry that you are so unhappy with how things are at your school at the moment! I think that compared to my school, your school sounds way more difficult! At least you are on the home stretch now!
I hope the chemo and everything goes well for your dad! *hugs*
I can sort of understand what you might be going through…there were times when I just wanted to get done and over with school as well. Eventually you will graduate so I hope you don’t burn yourself out!
Wait what no backpacks O_o. Yeah I agree…guns are dangerous but this rule is not going to prevent anything…actually it is downright ridiculous and absurd lol. Damn I feel for you…I never had lockers and kind of want to have that experience but I would not like to have to go back and forth a million times
Oh god…art…we had to do art history as a compulsory course in college. I know it is nice to know about art and be able to appreciate it and stuff but wasting time on papers and assignments on something totally irrelevant to your major just annoys me T_T.
Haha I had a bunch of people from school that I don’t want to run into again…we were all in the same school for 10 years ugh >_>. I hope you don’t run into them in college :D.
Hey don’t apologize…we all have our cranky moments
I hope you can get it over with and move onto your college life ^_^. I guess I am kind of late but I hope everything goes well with your dad. Take care!
Those are some crazy, silly rules. It was actually interesting reading your rant though I think I had the same sentiments in school (can’t wait to get out of it). I’m happy to hear that about your dad. I hope it goes well too.
I love this cranky post – because I was that type of cranky when I was a senior (…junior year too) in high school as well. The same stupid people every day. I had a little extra drama too (ex-boyfriend broke my heart AND stole all my friends – you can tell why I wanted to get onto college so badly!). I couldn’t want to go to college. And now that I’m almost done with college, I have to say it is definitely free of drama compared to high school. If there are people who are making you miserable, you don’t HAVE to ever see them again if you don’t want to! It’s a campus with thousands of people – you’ll never see anyone you don’t want to see.
Amazing.